Trying this again

well I thought I would try this one more time, since my 2yr old decided to delete my entire blog as I was getting ready to post it...She was in terrible need of an early nap today, so she has been put down for a good nap and will hopefully feel better when she wakes up...I def. think 2 yr old girls should come with a manual...lol

Here we are in the midst of some scary economic times and I find myself worried, but I worry about everything anyways, it's just part of my allure, lol, not really but I do find myself worrying for others who are losing their homes, jobs and cars...I feel the need to reread the Grapes of Wrath, I am sure things will not get that bad again since most of us as humans do not care to be That uncomfortable for that long, so I would imagine something will happen last minute to make things better for some...But if you haven't read the book or at least watched the movie, it would be a good way to spend an evening...Maybe if more people realized how easy it would be to become a character from that book or movie, then maybe things would change a little...

After a discussion today something has been on my mind that is bothering me. So here goes,

I guess I just don't really understand the need to keep up with the Joneses...I never have..I don't understand how bigger houses, bigger suv's and more toys is bettering one's self? It's a false sense of bettering yourself, I would think, but then again I have never been driven to keep up with them Joneses...I could care less what kind of vehicle I drive as long as it's safe for me and my family and it gets us there and back...I could care less how many thousands of sq. feet my house is, if we're safe and happy...I never bought the idea that we need to have more to be more in society...if I have to live in a big nice fancy house and drive a super nice and expensive car to get your attention and to be a good person, then maybe I don't want you there with me anyways...because you won't respect or value the same things I do, so it would be like butting our heads together...and I have heard that gets painful after a while...lol

We were dirt poor when I was growing up, and I do mean dirt poor, both of my parents worked 2 jobs a piece to make ends meet, and we still barely survived... so I know what poor is, some people sadly think that I have a poor person mentality that I don't feel the need to better myself...(I was informed of this today...lol) because I choose to live on a homestead, raise animals for food, grow a garden, etc... but the truth is, I don't feel like I need all that STUFF to better myself...it is only Stuff...will it help me and my family get into Heaven? will it help me be closer to the Lord? I don't think it does...

I tried living the all american dream, even though I didn't really buy it, I thought there must be something to it, and you know where I found myself? I was so far from happy and peaceful that it was painful, not only to me but to my husband...I didn't keep a good relationship with God open because I was too busy keeping the dream alive...until one day it slapped me in the face, it had been calling my name for a long time and I chose to ignore it...I wasn't happy living like so many others...I wasn't peaceful and was def. too busy to include God in my daily life...I knew something had to change. So we found our little metal shed/haybarn up on the bottom of the hill, next to the woods and converted it into a home and have been out here for 10 years...I guess what I should say is I am happier than I have EVER been...my husband is happy and my children are Happy & Thriving, on not much Stuff...but something else that is important, Everyone has a right to be happy and if keeping up with the joneses makes you happy, then have at it and I hope you get everything you want...but don't look down on me or think I'm lazy because I don't feel the need to follow in those same footsteps...because if someone told you homesteading was easy and for the lazy...LMBO...They LIED to you...lol I work harder out here, than I ever dreamed.

So I guess this turned into more of a rant than I really intended...but sometimes things just need to be said...even if just to get it off your chest :)